The Blog Post I Never Wanted To Write

miniature schnauzer kelly from on sutton place

We all have moments in our lives that define us. These moments change our lives, and they stay with us forever. For me, one of those moments was when we brought home our little dog, Kelly.

kelly in blue plaid dog bed

In the beginning, Kelly was the solution to a problem. I had raised two children, and loved every minute. But they grew up and struck out on their own, leaving me with a great big hole in my life. No matter how hard I tried, I could not fill that hole, let alone close it. And if you’re wondering, I really did try.

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So Kelly was the third child I never had, and the cure for a bad case of empty nest syndrome. I had no idea that I would fall in love with her, and that she would become such an important part of my life. We got her in 2008, when I was still working as a school secretary. So I had to leave her every day, until 2012 when I began blogging full time, and could work from home.

For nearly ten years, she has been my constant companion. She was happiest when she was in the chair next to mine…or on my lap. We did everything together, from taking out the trash, to visiting my dad…and everything in between. My husband and I loved her more than we ever thought possible. If you’ve never had a pet, it’s hard to describe, and even harder to understand. But it’s an unconditional love that is strong and true.

miniature schnauzer sitting on front porch

On July 22nd, we had to say goodbye to Kelly…and it literally broke my heart. She was 13 years old, and had developed a large tumor on her leg. It was inoperable, and had spread up into her hip. So we held on, kept her comfortable, and prayed that the tumor growth would slow down. In the end, it ruptured, and we knew what we had to do.

That day is sort of a blur, and to those of you who have experienced the process of putting a loved pet to sleep, my heart goes out to you. It’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. The whole time I kept thinking “maybe this is a mistake…maybe things will be OK.” But deep down I knew it wasn’t a mistake, and I knew things were not going to be OK. It was the last time we could show her how much we loved her. I know that now, but at the time, I couldn’t quite grasp it.

The void left after her death is unbelievable, and I did not anticipate its size. It’s so big that I can’t really see over it right now. Kelly was a treasured thread in the fabric that makes up our family, and now that thread has broken. I need to somehow mend it…and I have faith that I will figure out how. It’s just going to take some time.

mini schnauzer on living room sofa

I’m waiting for the day when I wake up and don’t feel sad. When remembering her sweet face will make me smile. I know that day will come, and I’m looking forward to it very much.

So…thank you for listening. It’s because of you all, and your support of my blog, that I’ve been able to work from home, and be with Kelly. I am beyond grateful for the time I had with her…and I just wanted you to know.

ann drake with kelly from on sutton place

I made a new printable with one of my favorite quotes about loving animals. Just fill out the form below if you would like a copy for yourself. *Current OSP subscribers should go ahead and fill out the form and I’ll send the printables right away. My email company makes sure that you don’t get duplicate subscriptions.

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Until next time…

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232 Comments

  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I have felt your pain many times, because we have had and loved many animals. I think they are God’s gift to us. Nothing compares to the unconditional love of a dog. I believe that the only way to fill the void is to love another dog, when you have grieved and know the time is right.

  2. Kathy Briscoe says:

    Dear Ann,
    I am sorry for the loss of your dear pet. My husband once remarked he wanted a dog to outlive us so he didn’t have to grieve the loss. We had a corgi for eight years. Rusty ruptured a disc and he had surgery but it was unsuccessful, and we had to put home to sleep. Beloved pets leave a hole in your heart after their death because they love us unconditionally.

  3. Dear Ann,
    With a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes I read your post about your precious Kelly. I have lost many friends in my life and it is always heartbreaking. I was wish you a healing spirit to comfort you.

    My cats have been my best friends and i can feel your loss. Thank you for sharing your heart.

    Kim, a kindred spirit 🙏🏻

  4. Dear Ann,
    This is a bit late, but I’ve just read the sad news about your beautiful Kelly and just wanted to say how sorry I was. I had a similar experience in 2019 when I had to put my beautiful girl Odie (corgi cross) to sleep. My previous dog was a gorgeous Staffy and after he died, I thought I’d never recover from the grief nor love another dog as much. Eight months later, little Odie came to me and I reluctantly took her in to save her from the pound – and soon fell in love all over again. As I and others have found, a new pup will soon heal the grief and bring that joy back into our lives and hearts. Anna xxx

  5. Cookie eddings says:

    Dear Ann,
    Oh how sorry I am to hear about your little girl Kelly. I always loved it when your post would contain a picture of Kelly. Myself as many others have lost a beloved pet. They are more precious than gold, our best friend. It can’t hurt more because they are a part of our family. I say–if people were as good as our animals this world would be a fantastic place in which to live.
    My 54 yr. old daughter who has been a diabetic since she was 12 yrs. has her precious dog who helps her to walk, & alerts her at night when her blood sugar gets low. I am in awe by the love & help, physically & emotionally, our dogs give us. I literally can’t find the words to express how much our dear dogs mean to us who are lucky enough to have them. I like all of your other

    readers have experienced what you are going through. I’m so very,very sorry Ann. My prayers are with you during this difficult time. Love, Cookie

  6. Susan Lindeman says:

    I’m so very sorry for your loss. May you eventually find peace and comfort with all your precious memories of your life with Kelly ♥

  7. Catherine says:

    Pets are forever in our hearts. Losing one puts you on a road that seems to never end. You don’t walk alone, we share the sorrow and loss, we share a hug with you at this time. God bless you in your time of grief.

  8. Ann, I can hardly type this for the tears. My heart breaks for you. Kelly was a beautiful little girl & she was blessed to have had your love. You can see how many of us understand your loss – our pets love is so unconditional. It is hard to imagine our lives without them. 🙏 for you.

  9. Dear Ann,
    I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. I too, had a miniature schnauzer, Max, age 13 that looked like your Kelly. I lost him 4 years ago but, each time you posted her picture it made me smile knowing the joy she brings you and the wonderful memories I shared with my Max.
    We are about to say goodbye to another precious boy, Bud, as he has lymphoma and is near the end. It is so difficult to say goodbye but I wouldn’t trade the heartache for all the joy that they have given me through the years. Thank you for the print. It is so helpful now. Bless you and your sweet heart.

  10. So sorry for your loss. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.🙏🏻🙏🏻

  11. You had a beautiful dog and I know the pain having gone through it as well. So very sorry for your loss.

  12. My heart is sad for you and I am praying for God’s comfort to wrap around your heart during this time.

  13. Dear Ann, My thoughts & prayers are with you and your husband. Our pets do become a part of the family, they bring so much love & joy. Last year I lost my Havanese & Boston Terrier within one week of each other, I know the sorrow you are going through. It does get better but the loss never goes away and I know believe that’s a good thing. They are aways in our hearts. I friend gave me the book “The Invisible Leash: A Story Celebrating Love After the Loss of a Pet”. It helped me with the grieving process. Sandra

  14. Hi Ann,
    I am just reading this blog entry and my heart is so sorry for your loss. Your words describe exactly how hard it is to lose a beloved pet and member of the family. A few years back, after grieving for 6 months, my husband and I made the decision to love another dog (#3!) Although not the same, we have felt much happiness each time moving forward. They are all unique and special and it takes a big heart to love and an even bigger heart to let them go.
    My prayers are with you now and in your days ahead. You bring so much to our lives sharing through your blog …sending love and big hugs 🙏🏻❤️

  15. Dear Ann & Family,
    Oh, how my heart is breaking at the news of your sweet, precious Kelly. I am so sorry. It will take a lot of time to get to the point of thinking about her without balling your eyes out…we’ve been there numerous times with our furry dogs and cats. Kelly will remain with you in spirit and your fond memories of her will not be forgotten. Take care, and give yourself the grace to grieve for however long you need to.

  16. Ann, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your sweet pup. Cherish those memories and hold them close to your heart. Praying for you and your husband!

  17. My heart breaks for you and your family.
    Loosing a pet is like loosing a part of your family, and Kelly was a big part of your family. Although, each of us grieve very differently, it’s a difficult process to endure. I lost my precious Arley in June.
    She was a big part of our family for 15 years. It’s been a huge loss for me and I find myself still looking at her picture daily. It’s getting easier knowing that she’s not suffering and that she’s at peace.
    Hopefully, you will find peace someday soon 🙏

  18. Miz Helen says:

    5 stars
    My heart is breaking for you, I know exactly how a lost of our beloved pet can leave a void in our heart. My God hold you up and bless you during this journey of letting go. You are in my prayers.
    Miz Helen

  19. Oh no! I am so sorry to hear about your sweet Kelly. There are few things worse than losing a beloved pet. They are truly members of the family. Praying for your peace and comfort as heal from your loss, and praying you find a place in your hearts to welcome a new pet when the time is right.

  20. Yvonne @ StoneGable says:

    My dear friend! My heart is so sad for you! I certainly understand what you are going through and I am praying for you! What a blessing to have a 3rd baby you love so much! xo

  21. Marti Sentell says:

    The Dog
    I can’t talk dog and he can’t talk man,
    Yet Rover and me we understand;
    I wag my tongue and he wags his tail,
    And love explains where grammar fails.

    So sorry for your loss.

  22. linda layman says:

    Dear Ann,

    So sorry to read about your sweet Kelly. Schnauzers are so special! I currently have my second and her name is Stella. She is the best as we all feel about our precious dogs! Love your Blog!

    Have a Blessed Day!

    Linda Layman

  23. Vikki Baker says:

    Hi Ann, I am so sorry to hear about Kelly’s passing. I can’t say you will feel better soon because you will always miss her. But when it feels right, get yourself a puppy, not to take Kelly’s place but to give the new one some of the love you have in your heart. Fun fact: a couple years ago I contacted you here on your blog, asking about the buffalo check collar and black heart tag that Kelly was wearing. Thank you for responding. My 2 girls Bluebelle (blue pit/black lab mix) and Emmy (Maltese Yorkie mix) are now sporting the same collars & tags that Kelly looked so cute in! We lost our girl Harley, who was 15 years old, 2 years ago. I still have a large hole in my heart, but my other 2 dogs help me deal with it. My wish for you is peace and contentment!
    Regards, Vikki

  24. Hi Ann,
    Just wanted you to know that the grief, the loneliness, the heart-wrenching decision is a beautiful tribute to a sweet dog that loved you and that you loved back. It’s an indicator that the love that you shared was deep and strong, also evidenced by your final act of love. Bless you as you grieve, remember and feel. ❤️

  25. ANN MARIE says:

    Hi Ann! I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful doggie! We lost our female english bulldog Chloe who was 11 1/2 yrs old from an inoperable tumor on her spleen.. we know and feel your sorrow!
    hugs
    Ann Marie

  26. I’m so sorry for your loss. We have a 14-year-old terrier mix and I hope she lasts a good long while, I love her so much. I hope you can see a way to get another sweet dog someday.
    Karen

  27. RD Stambaugh says:

    I know how special Kelly was to you, Tom and the kids…So sorry for your loss.

  28. What a beautiful and heartbreaking post- the void can be felt through your words. Knowing when it’s time to say goodbye to a beloved family member is a selfless thing, but the pain is unbearable. To inflict that on oneself for the benefit of another is a true act of love. I’m so sorry.

  29. So incredibly sorry for your loss. I can totally empathize with you — we lost our cherished Bernese Mountain Dog on July 20 – a tumor that originated in his shoulder and metastasized quickly. Talk about faithful companion! It was not easy saying goodbye! When we lost our beloved German Shepherd two years ago, my husband filled a thumb drive of pictures of him, and loaded it onto an e-frame that we can see from our dining room table and while working in the kitchen. We see pics and remember what the dog was doing at the time – we’ve laughed, we’ve cried. It has been a great way to remember him and to grieve him! And now we have just begun a new set of pics with the recently deceased Berner. We totally understand that void you are feeling :-( There will be a day that you can smile because of the great memories you created with Kelly.

  30. Sherli Morgan says:

    I am so very sorry for the loss of your Kelly. I so related as I put a sweet pet to sleep almost 3 years ago. Our pets become like family, so the losses are deep caverns to fill. I pray your sadness will lighten as you think about & treasure the memories of Kelly. Bless you Ann!

    Sherli

  31. I am so sad for your loss and wish you love and peace. Kelly will always be a part of your spirit.

  32. Lucia Donahower says:

    Ann, I’m so sorry for your loss. She will live in your heart and provide you with wonderful memories.
    Lucy

  33. 5 stars
    I put off reading this because I knew it would make me cry. And it did. The pain is so real. I know that pain. My little girl was 15 when I knew it better for me that she live on not her. I lost two the same year. The other was hit by a car when she escaped the backyard. Dachshunds have a mind of their own. It will ease but you will never forget her. They are our children just from another mother. 💕💕💕💕

  34. Leslie Tancosh says:

    Anne, I am so sorry for your loss. I know what it feels like to lose a beloved pet. Keep your precious memories of Kelly close in your heart, so every time you think of her, you will smile. That’s what I do and it helps. God bless you and your family.

  35. Beth Bull says:

    I’m so very sorry for your loss. My husband and I lost our beloved Buffy in June. Since every place in our home reminded us of her, we took a short trip where we could mourn together and not be overwhelmed by being at home. Also, I recommend this book, When Your Pet Dies-A Guide to Mourning & Healing, by Alan D. Wolfelt. My cousin works with the author and recommended it to me. I hope it brings you comfort. I’ll be praying for you!

  36. Marguerite says:

    BeautifuL words for your sweet Kelly. So very sorry for you and your husband. Our pets give us so much joy and such unconditional love! Our little Shitzu sits and waits at the window until we return home even if we are gone just a few minutes. Allow yourself time to grieve this beautiful little soul. Take care!

  37. Ann Davis says:

    On Ann, I am so sorry to hear you have lost your Kelly. I lost my little Precious on July 28th and totally understand your loss. I will pray for you and ask you to pray for me! I enjoy your Sunday posts so much and know you are a true believer and I thank our Lord for bloggers like you. I will definitely be praying for your peace because I know without a shadow of a doubt he will send you peace and joy! May God’s Blessings be with you and your family in your time of loss.

  38. Ann, so sorry for your loss. Our pets really are a part of our family. Our Cher just turned 17 on July 22. She has really slowed up, so we know we are on borrowed time with her. I return to school next week, so it’s going to be difficult for her and me. She is my little shadow. (((HUGS)))

  39. 5 stars
    I too have lost my little schnauzer ‘Eliza’. She was a part of me, I’m sure. My baby, after all my babies were gone. I truly believe that we will see our pets in heaven, and that gives me comfort. We couldn’t stand the empty house so after about 3 months, we got two schnauzers! Max and Emma are a real joy for us! We love them dearly, but nothing can break that bond I had with little Eliza. It’s gonna be a schnauzer party in heaven some day! I’m thinking of you and praying your tender broken heart will be mended,,, soon.

  40. Ann…I am deeply sorry for your loss. I had 2 black standard schnauzers…our Cooper passed away 3 years ago at 10 and our sweet Etta died this past Father’s Day weekend. She was 15 years and 2 months old. Each loss does take a piece of us but their paw prints are forever on our hearts. A friend sent me this when Cooper died and now I’m sending it to you as I have done for others who know this pain well.
    ” There is a cycle of love and death that shapes the lives of those who choose to travel in the company of animals. It is a cycle unlike any other. To those who have never lived through its turnings or walked it’s rocky path, our willingness to give our hearts with full knowledge that they will be broken seems incomprehensible. Only we know how small a price we pay for what we receive; our grief no matter how powerful it may be, is an insufficient measure of the joy we have been given.” Suzanne Clothier
    Bless you and your little Kelly

  41. Michelle S. says:

    Oh, Ann, so sorry. Kelly will always be in your heart and mind. I’ve had several wonderful dogs thru the years and the bond we had was unbreakable. One special dog(Alice) passed on and the blanket she had in the hospital, I still have. I take a nap some afternoons and always throw Alice’s blanket over me. Time will help you heal. You take care. xoxo

  42. I am so, so sorry to hear about your precious Kelly. As an animal lover and owner of cats and dogs for years, I certainly understand your grief. One thing that has always helped me at times like this is the belief that I will see them again when I get there. I believe that animals have a soul just like we do and therefore do not just fade into nothingness. So in the meantime, Kelly will be frolicking on the other side just waiting to be reunited one day. Peace and love to you.

  43. Laura Kingery says:

    I’m just so sorry!!!

  44. René Klein says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss, Ann. I too have experienced that loss too many times over the years, with the deepest having to euthanize our terminally ill 14 year old Chow Chow, Luzi, who was truly our 1st child. As I’m writing this, my 14 year-old rescue Pittie, Roen, is sitting eternally loyal by my side and I’m aware our remaining time is fleetingly precious. Through it all, the sorrow of loss has been worth the loving journey with them by your side.

  45. Rebecca Haggerson says:

    Anne, I’m so sorry that you lost your baby Kelly. Our dogs are one of the best parts of our lives. Their love is so unconditional and their joy in sharing time with us is so apparent. Your photos of Kelly are so cute. I hope your many happy memories will carry you, along with the knowledge that your pup had a beautiful life with you and your family. Thinking of you.

  46. Kimberly Wolf says:

    Dear Ann, thank you for sharing about your sweet Kelly. I have always enjoyed your photos of her, as I have had 3 miniature schnauzers (Kristi, Kiefer and Winston). Kelly was a beautiful dog, and was blessed to be part of your family for so many years. There is nothing so hard as saying goodbye to one who is loved so much. My heart goes out to you. I know how much I love my Winston – a black mini. May God give you comfort as you navigate the days ahead. He is near to the brokenhearted. “He will cover you with his feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge.” Psalm 91:7

  47. Anne Gabany says:

    Precious Kelly, how very loved this pup has been. God bless you as you remember. You are loved, too. Anne

  48. All of us who have lost our beloved fur-child understand your pain. The grief is as strong as if you have lost a human family member. Prayers for your broken heart…

  49. I am so sorry for your loss! Our pets truly become part of our family and the pain from loosing them can be so overwhelming. My thoughts and prayers to you and your family as your grieve this loss.

  50. I am unbelievably sad for you, because I.Get.It.

    You are a priceless treasure. You are loved and
    your prayer warriors will be carrying your name
    for healing. Healing comes in grieving.

  51. Carol@BlueskyatHome says:

    Ann, I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved Kelly. I know exactly how you feel. As an adult, I’ve to say goodbye to two much loved pups. That doesn’t count the 3 that we had when I was growing up. It is so hard and it does take time. We have never stopped talking about our beautiful Layla that we had to put down in Feb. 2020. She was almost 16 and we are so grateful we had her so long. At the beginning of this year, I felt ready for a new pup and in March we brought home our Nola. Having a new puppy is work, but we are so happy to have her in our lives. We sometimes call her Layla. Give yourself time to mourn and remember with love all the good times.

  52. I am so sorry for your loss.

  53. I am so sorry Ann. Loosing a pet who is a member of the family is such a hard thing. Ours has been gone a very long time and I still weep sometimes. Our prayers are with you. 🙏🙏❤️❤️

  54. Bless your heart, Ann: It is so difficult to lose a pet. They do fill a void in our hearts that sometimes we didn’t know we had. When you shared a picture with Kelly in it, I had a smile on my face. I pray for your comfort at this difficult time.

  55. April Driggers says:

    My heart aches for you. I truly believe that dogs are one of the only way we can truly experience tangible unconditional love. 💙 sending prayers and hugs from Texas

  56. I would like a copy of your printable.
    Saying goodbye to a pet and helping them cross the rainbow bridge is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, and yet I know it it one of the most loving things I have ever done for them. I feel your pain; it is real. Speaking from experience, it does get better, but it does take time. They leave a big hole in our hearts… Your post made me cry

  57. Ann Abbott says:

    Oh Ann, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Kelly. We just love our little ones. May God comfort you and ease the pain of this rough time. Praying for you. ❤️

  58. I’m so sorry for your loss. Prayers for you as you heal. So glad you were able to spend lots of time with her.

  59. Denise Cobarrubias says:

    Ann, I hope that the compassion and heartfelt stories of other people’s pets brings you comfort during your loss of your dear sweet Kelly. I also brought home a bundle of joy, Coco when my daughter left for college. I was a school teacher at that time and cherished each summer that I was able to spend the entire day with her. I believe that it was Coco who was the happiest when I retired and we shared 8 of our 16 years together in retirement very happily. These are a few things that to this day help me keep her memory alive since 2017 when she left us. I found a favorite picture of Coco and tacked it on my frig with positive magnetic quotes and words near her pic. I left her water dish and favorite small toy in its place in my bedroom where she slept. I also kept one of her blankets to cover my rescued parakeet’s cage each night. Of course, seeing these items added to my grief in the beginning. But, little by little Coco’s belongings started to bring me great joy and still do to this day 4 years later. I am praying for you and know that you will discover the perfect way to honor Kelly and also help you cherish all of your most precious times together. Blessings, Denise

  60. Dear Ann,
    This post has made me weep. I am so very sorry to read the news about your darling dog, Kelly. I understand how you feel. In July of 2013 we lost our dog, Angel. I had always called her “my third child”, and people would comment on the amazing bond I had with her. I loved that little Chihuahua with all of my heart and soul. We did everything together, and she kept me sane through some very difficult days. She was 12 when she passed away from congestive heart failure. I still miss her to this day, but I can now think of her and the wonderful times we spent together without bawling my eyes out. I will keep you and your husband in my prayers. May God bless and comfort you!

  61. I’m so sorry, Ann. I know how hard it is to lose a pet. They are truly members of the family. You and Kelly gave each other the greatest gift of loving each other.

  62. 5 stars
    My heart hurts for you. Our pets become a member of our family and the pain of losing them is indescribable. I always say, “ no one in my house is greets me with a smile and welcome like my animal babies”. Everytime I come home!!! God bless

  63. Paula Conley says:

    Oh, Ann,
    I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved pup, Kelly. I loved seeing his pictures – especially the one with you sitting in the chair – because I could just see the impish behavior in his eyes. He was a beautiful pup. I, too, lost two precious Yorkies in the past 5 years. I didn’t think I would ever get over the sorrow of losing them. But I slowly did. I hope you will consider getting another puppy. I was convinced I could never loved other dogs as I loved LouLou and Bailey, but I was wrong. I have two more pups and I love them dearly, too! I offer you and your husband prayers of peace and understanding.

  64. Dear Ann,
    I’m so sorry to hear about sweet Kelly. I know how much-loved she was by you and your family.

  65. Ann I am so sorry to hear this news about your sweet Kelly. Hugs to you and your family and hoping you can find strength and peace during this very sad time.

  66. Hi Ann,
    My heart aches for you and your family. Pets are great company and definitely a part of the family. I know you have wonderful memories that will get you through this difficult time. Thinking of you.
    Ann Falk

  67. Karenann S. says:

    My heart breaks for your loss. I know the void that a beloved pet leaves when it passes away. It is so heartbreaking. Please know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. And Kelly is in my heart and prayers as well. May God bless you both!

  68. I am so very sorry! My heart breaks for you. We had to let go of one of our pets last year. Sending love.

  69. Peggy Born says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my sweet boy in February and I still miss him so much. It was so hard to let him go, but it was the last act of love I could give him. I still have his handsome picture on me credenza with a print of a dog and the words “A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than he loves himself” by Josh Billings. Will keep you and your broken heart in my prayers.

  70. Dawn Surmeier says:

    Dear Ann,
    I understand your pain completely as I had to put down my dog, Nutmeg, on july 23rd. She was my companion for 15 years and was the only thing I had left since my husband passed away in 2020 (my kids live out of state). I am hoping your pain will soon diminish and you will be able to focus on happy times you had. Please take comfort in you did what was best for your pup.

  71. Lynn Harris says:

    Ann, I wanted to express my deepest sympathy in the loss of your beloved pet Kelly. I have been thinking of you throughout the day and my heart hurts for you and your husband. I know exactly what you’re going through. I, too, got my first dog as an empty nester at age 50. She was a wonderfully good natured, happy little lap dog, a Bichon named Sophie. We simply adored her and were blessed to have her nearly 15 years. We lost her 3 years ago next month. I encourage you to read The Rainbow Bridge poem if someone hasn’t previously mentioned it. I truly believe that if you have loved and lost a pet, you will be reunited one day. God is that good. Ann, On Sutton Place was the first blog I ever subscribed to. We were experiencing some heavy duty midwestern snow storms and praying that the electricity would stay on so we wouldn’t miss “Downton Abbey”. I thought I had so much in common with you. I will be praying for you in the days ahead as you grieve for Kelly. God’s blessings be yours.
    Lynn

  72. So sorry for the loss of your little Kelly. Prayers lifted for y’all.

  73. I am so sorry for your loss. So very sorry. Kelly was such a beauty. I enjoyed every picture you posted of your faithful companion. I remember when you shared about her attack and how much I was hoping she would be okay. Eight years ago we went through the same heartache. We had gotten our sweetheart for the same reason you got Kelly. I decided I never wanted another. It hurt too much. My husband felt otherwise. Six weeks later we had another Pomeranian. She is the love of our life. She definitely stole our hearts. I did not think I could love again…Yep, hook, line, and sinker. God bless you, Ann. 🌸May time heal your broken heart.

  74. Jan Fusco says:

    Ann I’m hurting with you. I know what it’s like to lose a precious fur baby.
    I married just shy of my 40th birthday so I never had children but I do have a wonderful stepson. My precious doggies…Dixie, Tilly and D’beaux were my babies. They gave such comfort and love unconditionally. I hope you find comfort in all the happy memories you have with your pup. Thinking of you.

  75. Amen. I wish you peace.

  76. Oh Ann I am so sorry for your loss. Our fur babies touch our heart in a way that is so different from any other kind of love. I enjoyed every post that you featured Kelly. We all knew what a wonderful companion she was and how she filled your household. I cried all the way through your post and know the loss you are experiencing. Give yourself time to grieve and remember her lovingly. She will always be with you.

  77. Marisa Hart says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. The depth of love for a pet is what gives one the strength to show your pet the gift of freedom from pain and illness, as much as we would love to hold them closer a little longer…

  78. Ann Thrash-Trumbo says:

    What a cute little girl, what a beautiful pup. I can only imagine how your heart is breaking. I’m praying that you will experience joy once again, soon.

  79. Denise :) says:

    Ann, I’m so sorry. I know the heaviness of your heart. Praying the peace that passes all understanding for you. 💗💗💗

  80. Michelle Morrison says:

    Dear Ann,
    I feel the pain you are experiencing, and your post brought tears to my eyes. I also lost my best friend, a standard poodle named Charlie, on St. Patrick’s Day of this year. Like you, my four legged best friend became my constant companion after I retired. I remember when you lost your mother. You can feel her around you in spirit, right? It will be no different with Kelly as soon as the hole in your heart closes.

    “When tomorrow starts without me,
    Don’t think we’re far apart,
    For every time you think of me,
    I’m right here, inside your heart”

    Anonymous

  81. I am so sorry for you. I have lost many dogs in my married life and they all still have a place in my heart. I still miss them but I remember the love they gave us and that helps some.
    I pray that God will give you peace that passeth all understanding and you can remember the good times and not dwell on the grief. I know it is hard because they are such a integral part of our families.

  82. Reading your post about the loss of your best friend Kelly and how we love our pets so much and they give so much in return. Sending you and your family hugs of comfort. We just went through a very similar situation with our Kate. She was a beautiful black lab and had the sweetest disposition. Saying goodbye was so hard but we didn’t want her to be uncomfortable. Seems so quite around our home.

  83. Jan Colby says:

    I’m writing this with tears in my eyes. Life without your sweet Kelly to always be there hurts immeasurably. It’s a dark place that just doesn’t seem to get any brighter. After losing my sweet mini Schnauzer last November, I understand the depth of hurt. Remembering all of the silly Schnauzer antics that only they can do, turns some of the hurt into smiles. The brief moment in time that they are with us leaves our hearts and lives ever so much richer. My prayers to you for comfort in the days ahead.

  84. I am truly sorry for the loss of your beloved friend/companion. I read a quote that said something like this: the last gift we can give to end their suffering knowing that ours will just be beginning. May all the wonderful memories sustain you through your grief. Again, so sorry.

  85. Oh, Ann! I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved Kelly! I really am! I wish I was there to give you a hug, rub your back and comfort you. Give yourself time – lots of time. Be gentle and patient with yourself. You will never forget Kelly but you will get to a better place. Much love to you and your husband.

  86. Suzanne milstead says:

    My heart breaks to read your story. We lost our schnauzer 2 months ago. He was killed by 3 dogs that belonged to our neighbor. We had Mac for 9 1/2 years. Like you, I got him when I retired for companionship. My husband had not yet retired. He walked with us every day for 9 1/2 years.
    He was our protector (barking at everything), he was our entertainment, he gave us unconditional love.
    It is still hard because our house is now so quiet. Our morning walks are not as adventurous as they were when Mac chased every squirrel. Mealtime is not the same because Mac was always at our feet waiting for a bite.
    He will always live in our hearts and we will be thankful for love we shared. The saying, “It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” is something I try to remember as we forge ahead with Mac. As you will. 😢

    1. Suzanne Milstead says:

      Should have written “without Mac”.

  87. Ann Wilder says:

    I know exactly how you feel and it hurts so bad. Within 18 days we just in the last 2 weeks lost both of our fur babies…an 18.5 year old chihuahua and our 12 year old Boston. We are struggling. They become such a part of your daily life and are such integral parts of your family, it is so hard when they are gone. You put it so well about the thread being broken. I am so sorry for your loss as well.

  88. Karen Huck says:

    Thank you for sharing. I’m so sorry you lost Kelly. I to am about to lose my Mazie dog. She is such a part of our retired life and she is 13 now too. She has such bad arthritis, and she get medicine but I know the time is soon. I hate to let her go. I love her with my whole heart. She goes everywhere with us including sleeping right down the middle of the bed at night. But they say our animals will let us know when it’s time. I just love her up each day.
    Hugs and prayers to you,
    Karen

  89. What you say is so true that they become a thread in the tapestry of our lives. My heart goes out to you and your family with a loss that is so deep words fail to describe it. Please know we are all holding you in our hearts.

  90. Jennie Auld says:

    There’s so little one can say to alleviate that awful sense of loss. It happens too often, and never gets better. But time is kind, and the day will come when you can remember her without an ache in your heart, and smile at special memories. 🌸

  91. Keeping you and your husband in my prayers as you deal with the loss of your sweet Kelly. We have had to put two mini schnauzers to sleep, the latest being Henry in January a year ago after he was diagnosed with a brain tumor. It is such a painful decision to make, but afterwards my husband and I always knew we had done what was best for our babies. It was so painful to come home to an empty house (we’re empty nesters), so right when the pandemic started, we gave two mini schnauzer puppies their forever homes. They gave us so much joy during the time we were confined and continue to do so. You will figure out what you need to do to fill the void in your life as times passes and heals your hurt.

    1. Your Kelly had a wonderful life, and was so loved. I’m so sorry for this difficult time for you, I totally understand, we had to say goodbye to our Welch terrier, just shy of his 17th birthday. Such a hard decision, our Welch had an inoperable tumor under his eye lid, which became infected and effected his sinus areas, and also lost strength in his hind quarters. Easy day gets a little easier. Friends and family have criticized us for burying our beloved Welsch at a pet cemetery, but like you said, not everyone can understand how much they become a part of your family. Prayers for you, find peace in your memories of Kelly, she is in doggie heaven……

  92. Melissa Houston says:

    Thank you, Ann, for sharing your story and Kelly’s with your readers. I am so very sorry for your loss. I understand as I’ve lost a beloved cat who had to be put down and two pet rabbits. Loss is the cost of love. However, I would take the love of a dear pet over the pain of loss. Those we love never really leave us as long as we have our memories. I have another sweet bunny, and he enriches my life daily. I hope you find that memories help ease your pain and that the tears are mixed with smiles. Thank you for the beautiful printable. Your blog is a favorite of mine, and I so appreciate your ability to write so beautifully. With prayers and love, I wish you and your family comfort.

  93. The pup we have is not even ours – it belongs to our daughter – but it is definitely family. I felt your every heartbeat in your writing about Kelly. And it brought me to tears. Hang in there, Ann. Hugs from a distance and prayers for your broken heart.

  94. My prayers are with you!!! My heart aches for your loss of Kelly!!!

  95. Ann my heart aches for you and your husband on the loss of your beloved Kelly. Kelly was lucky to have you and you her. My sincere sympathy to you both. The printable quote about loving animals says it all. Thank you Ann that in the midst of your grief you shared it with all of us. Holding you close in my thoughts and prayers.

  96. Praying for your heart!

  97. My deepest sympathy Ann. Your Kelly was blessed by you and you by her. Treasure your memories. I owned my horse Galahad Lad for 32 years. Hardest day of my life when I had to let him go. I am such a better person for the unconditional love he showed me. He was my BFF.

  98. Mary Clancy says:

    I am so sorry. I just looked over at the photo of my Westie, Cooper, and I asked my Mom and Dad in heaven to give him a big hug. 💖