The Blog Post I Never Wanted To Write

miniature schnauzer kelly from on sutton place

We all have moments in our lives that define us. These moments change our lives, and they stay with us forever. For me, one of those moments was when we brought home our little dog, Kelly.

kelly in blue plaid dog bed

In the beginning, Kelly was the solution to a problem. I had raised two children, and loved every minute. But they grew up and struck out on their own, leaving me with a great big hole in my life. No matter how hard I tried, I could not fill that hole, let alone close it. And if you’re wondering, I really did try.

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So Kelly was the third child I never had, and the cure for a bad case of empty nest syndrome. I had no idea that I would fall in love with her, and that she would become such an important part of my life. We got her in 2008, when I was still working as a school secretary. So I had to leave her every day, until 2012 when I began blogging full time, and could work from home.

For nearly ten years, she has been my constant companion. She was happiest when she was in the chair next to mine…or on my lap. We did everything together, from taking out the trash, to visiting my dad…and everything in between. My husband and I loved her more than we ever thought possible. If you’ve never had a pet, it’s hard to describe, and even harder to understand. But it’s an unconditional love that is strong and true.

miniature schnauzer sitting on front porch

On July 22nd, we had to say goodbye to Kelly…and it literally broke my heart. She was 13 years old, and had developed a large tumor on her leg. It was inoperable, and had spread up into her hip. So we held on, kept her comfortable, and prayed that the tumor growth would slow down. In the end, it ruptured, and we knew what we had to do.

That day is sort of a blur, and to those of you who have experienced the process of putting a loved pet to sleep, my heart goes out to you. It’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. The whole time I kept thinking “maybe this is a mistake…maybe things will be OK.” But deep down I knew it wasn’t a mistake, and I knew things were not going to be OK. It was the last time we could show her how much we loved her. I know that now, but at the time, I couldn’t quite grasp it.

The void left after her death is unbelievable, and I did not anticipate its size. It’s so big that I can’t really see over it right now. Kelly was a treasured thread in the fabric that makes up our family, and now that thread has broken. I need to somehow mend it…and I have faith that I will figure out how. It’s just going to take some time.

mini schnauzer on living room sofa

I’m waiting for the day when I wake up and don’t feel sad. When remembering her sweet face will make me smile. I know that day will come, and I’m looking forward to it very much.

So…thank you for listening. It’s because of you all, and your support of my blog, that I’ve been able to work from home, and be with Kelly. I am beyond grateful for the time I had with her…and I just wanted you to know.

ann drake with kelly from on sutton place

I made a new printable with one of my favorite quotes about loving animals. Just fill out the form below if you would like a copy for yourself. *Current OSP subscribers should go ahead and fill out the form and I’ll send the printables right away. My email company makes sure that you don’t get duplicate subscriptions.

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Until next time…

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  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I have felt your pain many times, because we have had and loved many animals. I think they are God’s gift to us. Nothing compares to the unconditional love of a dog. I believe that the only way to fill the void is to love another dog, when you have grieved and know the time is right.

  2. Kathy Briscoe says:

    Dear Ann,
    I am sorry for the loss of your dear pet. My husband once remarked he wanted a dog to outlive us so he didn’t have to grieve the loss. We had a corgi for eight years. Rusty ruptured a disc and he had surgery but it was unsuccessful, and we had to put home to sleep. Beloved pets leave a hole in your heart after their death because they love us unconditionally.

  3. Dear Ann,
    With a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes I read your post about your precious Kelly. I have lost many friends in my life and it is always heartbreaking. I was wish you a healing spirit to comfort you.

    My cats have been my best friends and i can feel your loss. Thank you for sharing your heart.

    Kim, a kindred spirit 🙏🏻

  4. Dear Ann,
    This is a bit late, but I’ve just read the sad news about your beautiful Kelly and just wanted to say how sorry I was. I had a similar experience in 2019 when I had to put my beautiful girl Odie (corgi cross) to sleep. My previous dog was a gorgeous Staffy and after he died, I thought I’d never recover from the grief nor love another dog as much. Eight months later, little Odie came to me and I reluctantly took her in to save her from the pound – and soon fell in love all over again. As I and others have found, a new pup will soon heal the grief and bring that joy back into our lives and hearts. Anna xxx

  5. Cookie eddings says:

    Dear Ann,
    Oh how sorry I am to hear about your little girl Kelly. I always loved it when your post would contain a picture of Kelly. Myself as many others have lost a beloved pet. They are more precious than gold, our best friend. It can’t hurt more because they are a part of our family. I say–if people were as good as our animals this world would be a fantastic place in which to live.
    My 54 yr. old daughter who has been a diabetic since she was 12 yrs. has her precious dog who helps her to walk, & alerts her at night when her blood sugar gets low. I am in awe by the love & help, physically & emotionally, our dogs give us. I literally can’t find the words to express how much our dear dogs mean to us who are lucky enough to have them. I like all of your other

    readers have experienced what you are going through. I’m so very,very sorry Ann. My prayers are with you during this difficult time. Love, Cookie

  6. Susan Lindeman says:

    I’m so very sorry for your loss. May you eventually find peace and comfort with all your precious memories of your life with Kelly ♥

  7. Catherine says:

    Pets are forever in our hearts. Losing one puts you on a road that seems to never end. You don’t walk alone, we share the sorrow and loss, we share a hug with you at this time. God bless you in your time of grief.

  8. Ann, I can hardly type this for the tears. My heart breaks for you. Kelly was a beautiful little girl & she was blessed to have had your love. You can see how many of us understand your loss – our pets love is so unconditional. It is hard to imagine our lives without them. 🙏 for you.

  9. Dear Ann,
    I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. I too, had a miniature schnauzer, Max, age 13 that looked like your Kelly. I lost him 4 years ago but, each time you posted her picture it made me smile knowing the joy she brings you and the wonderful memories I shared with my Max.
    We are about to say goodbye to another precious boy, Bud, as he has lymphoma and is near the end. It is so difficult to say goodbye but I wouldn’t trade the heartache for all the joy that they have given me through the years. Thank you for the print. It is so helpful now. Bless you and your sweet heart.

  10. So sorry for your loss. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.🙏🏻🙏🏻

  11. You had a beautiful dog and I know the pain having gone through it as well. So very sorry for your loss.

  12. My heart is sad for you and I am praying for God’s comfort to wrap around your heart during this time.

  13. Dear Ann, My thoughts & prayers are with you and your husband. Our pets do become a part of the family, they bring so much love & joy. Last year I lost my Havanese & Boston Terrier within one week of each other, I know the sorrow you are going through. It does get better but the loss never goes away and I know believe that’s a good thing. They are aways in our hearts. I friend gave me the book “The Invisible Leash: A Story Celebrating Love After the Loss of a Pet”. It helped me with the grieving process. Sandra

  14. Hi Ann,
    I am just reading this blog entry and my heart is so sorry for your loss. Your words describe exactly how hard it is to lose a beloved pet and member of the family. A few years back, after grieving for 6 months, my husband and I made the decision to love another dog (#3!) Although not the same, we have felt much happiness each time moving forward. They are all unique and special and it takes a big heart to love and an even bigger heart to let them go.
    My prayers are with you now and in your days ahead. You bring so much to our lives sharing through your blog …sending love and big hugs 🙏🏻❤️

  15. Dear Ann & Family,
    Oh, how my heart is breaking at the news of your sweet, precious Kelly. I am so sorry. It will take a lot of time to get to the point of thinking about her without balling your eyes out…we’ve been there numerous times with our furry dogs and cats. Kelly will remain with you in spirit and your fond memories of her will not be forgotten. Take care, and give yourself the grace to grieve for however long you need to.

  16. Ann, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your sweet pup. Cherish those memories and hold them close to your heart. Praying for you and your husband!

  17. My heart breaks for you and your family.
    Loosing a pet is like loosing a part of your family, and Kelly was a big part of your family. Although, each of us grieve very differently, it’s a difficult process to endure. I lost my precious Arley in June.
    She was a big part of our family for 15 years. It’s been a huge loss for me and I find myself still looking at her picture daily. It’s getting easier knowing that she’s not suffering and that she’s at peace.
    Hopefully, you will find peace someday soon 🙏

  18. Miz Helen says:

    5 stars
    My heart is breaking for you, I know exactly how a lost of our beloved pet can leave a void in our heart. My God hold you up and bless you during this journey of letting go. You are in my prayers.
    Miz Helen

  19. Oh no! I am so sorry to hear about your sweet Kelly. There are few things worse than losing a beloved pet. They are truly members of the family. Praying for your peace and comfort as heal from your loss, and praying you find a place in your hearts to welcome a new pet when the time is right.

  20. Yvonne @ StoneGable says:

    My dear friend! My heart is so sad for you! I certainly understand what you are going through and I am praying for you! What a blessing to have a 3rd baby you love so much! xo

  21. Marti Sentell says:

    The Dog
    I can’t talk dog and he can’t talk man,
    Yet Rover and me we understand;
    I wag my tongue and he wags his tail,
    And love explains where grammar fails.

    So sorry for your loss.

  22. linda layman says:

    Dear Ann,

    So sorry to read about your sweet Kelly. Schnauzers are so special! I currently have my second and her name is Stella. She is the best as we all feel about our precious dogs! Love your Blog!

    Have a Blessed Day!

    Linda Layman

  23. Vikki Baker says:

    Hi Ann, I am so sorry to hear about Kelly’s passing. I can’t say you will feel better soon because you will always miss her. But when it feels right, get yourself a puppy, not to take Kelly’s place but to give the new one some of the love you have in your heart. Fun fact: a couple years ago I contacted you here on your blog, asking about the buffalo check collar and black heart tag that Kelly was wearing. Thank you for responding. My 2 girls Bluebelle (blue pit/black lab mix) and Emmy (Maltese Yorkie mix) are now sporting the same collars & tags that Kelly looked so cute in! We lost our girl Harley, who was 15 years old, 2 years ago. I still have a large hole in my heart, but my other 2 dogs help me deal with it. My wish for you is peace and contentment!
    Regards, Vikki

  24. Hi Ann,
    Just wanted you to know that the grief, the loneliness, the heart-wrenching decision is a beautiful tribute to a sweet dog that loved you and that you loved back. It’s an indicator that the love that you shared was deep and strong, also evidenced by your final act of love. Bless you as you grieve, remember and feel. ❤️

  25. ANN MARIE says:

    Hi Ann! I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful doggie! We lost our female english bulldog Chloe who was 11 1/2 yrs old from an inoperable tumor on her spleen.. we know and feel your sorrow!
    Ann Marie

  26. I’m so sorry for your loss. We have a 14-year-old terrier mix and I hope she lasts a good long while, I love her so much. I hope you can see a way to get another sweet dog someday.

  27. RD Stambaugh says:

    I know how special Kelly was to you, Tom and the kids…So sorry for your loss.

  28. What a beautiful and heartbreaking post- the void can be felt through your words. Knowing when it’s time to say goodbye to a beloved family member is a selfless thing, but the pain is unbearable. To inflict that on oneself for the benefit of another is a true act of love. I’m so sorry.

  29. So incredibly sorry for your loss. I can totally empathize with you — we lost our cherished Bernese Mountain Dog on July 20 – a tumor that originated in his shoulder and metastasized quickly. Talk about faithful companion! It was not easy saying goodbye! When we lost our beloved German Shepherd two years ago, my husband filled a thumb drive of pictures of him, and loaded it onto an e-frame that we can see from our dining room table and while working in the kitchen. We see pics and remember what the dog was doing at the time – we’ve laughed, we’ve cried. It has been a great way to remember him and to grieve him! And now we have just begun a new set of pics with the recently deceased Berner. We totally understand that void you are feeling :-( There will be a day that you can smile because of the great memories you created with Kelly.

  30. Sherli Morgan says:

    I am so very sorry for the loss of your Kelly. I so related as I put a sweet pet to sleep almost 3 years ago. Our pets become like family, so the losses are deep caverns to fill. I pray your sadness will lighten as you think about & treasure the memories of Kelly. Bless you Ann!


  31. I am so sad for your loss and wish you love and peace. Kelly will always be a part of your spirit.

  32. Lucia Donahower says:

    Ann, I’m so sorry for your loss. She will live in your heart and provide you with wonderful memories.

  33. 5 stars
    I put off reading this because I knew it would make me cry. And it did. The pain is so real. I know that pain. My little girl was 15 when I knew it better for me that she live on not her. I lost two the same year. The other was hit by a car when she escaped the backyard. Dachshunds have a mind of their own. It will ease but you will never forget her. They are our children just from another mother. 💕💕💕💕

  34. Leslie Tancosh says:

    Anne, I am so sorry for your loss. I know what it feels like to lose a beloved pet. Keep your precious memories of Kelly close in your heart, so every time you think of her, you will smile. That’s what I do and it helps. God bless you and your family.

  35. Beth Bull says:

    I’m so very sorry for your loss. My husband and I lost our beloved Buffy in June. Since every place in our home reminded us of her, we took a short trip where we could mourn together and not be overwhelmed by being at home. Also, I recommend this book, When Your Pet Dies-A Guide to Mourning & Healing, by Alan D. Wolfelt. My cousin works with the author and recommended it to me. I hope it brings you comfort. I’ll be praying for you!

  36. Marguerite says:

    BeautifuL words for your sweet Kelly. So very sorry for you and your husband. Our pets give us so much joy and such unconditional love! Our little Shitzu sits and waits at the window until we return home even if we are gone just a few minutes. Allow yourself time to grieve this beautiful little soul. Take care!

  37. Ann Davis says:

    On Ann, I am so sorry to hear you have lost your Kelly. I lost my little Precious on July 28th and totally understand your loss. I will pray for you and ask you to pray for me! I enjoy your Sunday posts so much and know you are a true believer and I thank our Lord for bloggers like you. I will definitely be praying for your peace because I know without a shadow of a doubt he will send you peace and joy! May God’s Blessings be with you and your family in your time of loss.

  38. Ann, so sorry for your loss. Our pets really are a part of our family. Our Cher just turned 17 on July 22. She has really slowed up, so we know we are on borrowed time with her. I return to school next week, so it’s going to be difficult for her and me. She is my little shadow. (((HUGS)))

  39. 5 stars
    I too have lost my little schnauzer ‘Eliza’. She was a part of me, I’m sure. My baby, after all my babies were gone. I truly believe that we will see our pets in heaven, and that gives me comfort. We couldn’t stand the empty house so after about 3 months, we got two schnauzers! Max and Emma are a real joy for us! We love them dearly, but nothing can break that bond I had with little Eliza. It’s gonna be a schnauzer party in heaven some day! I’m thinking of you and praying your tender broken heart will be mended,,, soon.

  40. Ann…I am deeply sorry for your loss. I had 2 black standard schnauzers…our Cooper passed away 3 years ago at 10 and our sweet Etta died this past Father’s Day weekend. She was 15 years and 2 months old. Each loss does take a piece of us but their paw prints are forever on our hearts. A friend sent me this when Cooper died and now I’m sending it to you as I have done for others who know this pain well.
    ” There is a cycle of love and death that shapes the lives of those who choose to travel in the company of animals. It is a cycle unlike any other. To those who have never lived through its turnings or walked it’s rocky path, our willingness to give our hearts with full knowledge that they will be broken seems incomprehensible. Only we know how small a price we pay for what we receive; our grief no matter how powerful it may be, is an insufficient measure of the joy we have been given.” Suzanne Clothier
    Bless you and your little Kelly

  41. Michelle S. says:

    Oh, Ann, so sorry. Kelly will always be in your heart and mind. I’ve had several wonderful dogs thru the years and the bond we had was unbreakable. One special dog(Alice) passed on and the blanket she had in the hospital, I still have. I take a nap some afternoons and always throw Alice’s blanket over me. Time will help you heal. You take care. xoxo

  42. I am so, so sorry to hear about your precious Kelly. As an animal lover and owner of cats and dogs for years, I certainly understand your grief. One thing that has always helped me at times like this is the belief that I will see them again when I get there. I believe that animals have a soul just like we do and therefore do not just fade into nothingness. So in the meantime, Kelly will be frolicking on the other side just waiting to be reunited one day. Peace and love to you.

  43. Laura Kingery says:

    I’m just so sorry!!!

  44. René Klein says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss, Ann. I too have experienced that loss too many times over the years, with the deepest having to euthanize our terminally ill 14 year old Chow Chow, Luzi, who was truly our 1st child. As I’m writing this, my 14 year-old rescue Pittie, Roen, is sitting eternally loyal by my side and I’m aware our remaining time is fleetingly precious. Through it all, the sorrow of loss has been worth the loving journey with them by your side.

  45. Rebecca Haggerson says:

    Anne, I’m so sorry that you lost your baby Kelly. Our dogs are one of the best parts of our lives. Their love is so unconditional and their joy in sharing time with us is so apparent. Your photos of Kelly are so cute. I hope your many happy memories will carry you, along with the knowledge that your pup had a beautiful life with you and your family. Thinking of you.

  46. Kimberly Wolf says:

    Dear Ann, thank you for sharing about your sweet Kelly. I have always enjoyed your photos of her, as I have had 3 miniature schnauzers (Kristi, Kiefer and Winston). Kelly was a beautiful dog, and was blessed to be part of your family for so many years. There is nothing so hard as saying goodbye to one who is loved so much. My heart goes out to you. I know how much I love my Winston – a black mini. May God give you comfort as you navigate the days ahead. He is near to the brokenhearted. “He will cover you with his feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge.” Psalm 91:7

  47. Anne Gabany says:

    Precious Kelly, how very loved this pup has been. God bless you as you remember. You are loved, too. Anne

  48. All of us who have lost our beloved fur-child understand your pain. The grief is as strong as if you have lost a human family member. Prayers for your broken heart…

  49. I am so sorry for your loss! Our pets truly become part of our family and the pain from loosing them can be so overwhelming. My thoughts and prayers to you and your family as your grieve this loss.

  50. I am unbelievably sad for you, because I.Get.It.

    You are a priceless treasure. You are loved and
    your prayer warriors will be carrying your name
    for healing. Healing comes in grieving.

  51. Carol@BlueskyatHome says:

    Ann, I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved Kelly. I know exactly how you feel. As an adult, I’ve to say goodbye to two much loved pups. That doesn’t count the 3 that we had when I was growing up. It is so hard and it does take time. We have never stopped talking about our beautiful Layla that we had to put down in Feb. 2020. She was almost 16 and we are so grateful we had her so long. At the beginning of this year, I felt ready for a new pup and in March we brought home our Nola. Having a new puppy is work, but we are so happy to have her in our lives. We sometimes call her Layla. Give yourself time to mourn and remember with love all the good times.

  52. I am so sorry for your loss.

  53. I am so sorry Ann. Loosing a pet who is a member of the family is such a hard thing. Ours has been gone a very long time and I still weep sometimes. Our prayers are with you. 🙏🙏❤️❤️

  54. Bless your heart, Ann: It is so difficult to lose a pet. They do fill a void in our hearts that sometimes we didn’t know we had. When you shared a picture with Kelly in it, I had a smile on my face. I pray for your comfort at this difficult time.

  55. April Driggers says:

    My heart aches for you. I truly believe that dogs are one of the only way we can truly experience tangible unconditional love. 💙 sending prayers and hugs from Texas

  56. I would like a copy of your printable.
    Saying goodbye to a pet and helping them cross the rainbow bridge is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, and yet I know it it one of the most loving things I have ever done for them. I feel your pain; it is real. Speaking from experience, it does get better, but it does take time. They leave a big hole in our hearts… Your post made me cry

  57. Ann Abbott says:

    Oh Ann, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Kelly. We just love our little ones. May God comfort you and ease the pain of this rough time. Praying for you. ❤️

  58. I’m so sorry for your loss. Prayers for you as you heal. So glad you were able to spend lots of time with her.

  59. Denise Cobarrubias says:

    Ann, I hope that the compassion and heartfelt stories of other people’s pets brings you comfort during your loss of your dear sweet Kelly. I also brought home a bundle of joy, Coco when my daughter left for college. I was a school teacher at that time and cherished each summer that I was able to spend the entire day with her. I believe that it was Coco who was the happiest when I retired and we shared 8 of our 16 years together in retirement very happily. These are a few things that to this day help me keep her memory alive since 2017 when she left us. I found a favorite picture of Coco and tacked it on my frig with positive magnetic quotes and words near her pic. I left her water dish and favorite small toy in its place in my bedroom where she slept. I also kept one of her blankets to cover my rescued parakeet’s cage each night. Of course, seeing these items added to my grief in the beginning. But, little by little Coco’s belongings started to bring me great joy and still do to this day 4 years later. I am praying for you and know that you will discover the perfect way to honor Kelly and also help you cherish all of your most precious times together. Blessings, Denise

  60. Dear Ann,
    This post has made me weep. I am so very sorry to read the news about your darling dog, Kelly. I understand how you feel. In July of 2013 we lost our dog, Angel. I had always called her “my third child”, and people would comment on the amazing bond I had with her. I loved that little Chihuahua with all of my heart and soul. We did everything together, and she kept me sane through some very difficult days. She was 12 when she passed away from congestive heart failure. I still miss her to this day, but I can now think of her and the wonderful times we spent together without bawling my eyes out. I will keep you and your husband in my prayers. May God bless and comfort you!

  61. I’m so sorry, Ann. I know how hard it is to lose a pet. They are truly members of the family. You and Kelly gave each other the greatest gift of loving each other.

  62. 5 stars
    My heart hurts for you. Our pets become a member of our family and the pain of losing them is indescribable. I always say, “ no one in my house is greets me with a smile and welcome like my animal babies”. Everytime I come home!!! God bless

  63. Paula Conley says:

    Oh, Ann,
    I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved pup, Kelly. I loved seeing his pictures – especially the one with you sitting in the chair – because I could just see the impish behavior in his eyes. He was a beautiful pup. I, too, lost two precious Yorkies in the past 5 years. I didn’t think I would ever get over the sorrow of losing them. But I slowly did. I hope you will consider getting another puppy. I was convinced I could never loved other dogs as I loved LouLou and Bailey, but I was wrong. I have two more pups and I love them dearly, too! I offer you and your husband prayers of peace and understanding.

  64. Dear Ann,
    I’m so sorry to hear about sweet Kelly. I know how much-loved she was by you and your family.

  65. Ann I am so sorry to hear this news about your sweet Kelly. Hugs to you and your family and hoping you can find strength and peace during this very sad time.

  66. Hi Ann,
    My heart aches for you and your family. Pets are great company and definitely a part of the family. I know you have wonderful memories that will get you through this difficult time. Thinking of you.
    Ann Falk

  67. Karenann S. says:

    My heart breaks for your loss. I know the void that a beloved pet leaves when it passes away. It is so heartbreaking. Please know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. And Kelly is in my heart and prayers as well. May God bless you both!

  68. I am so very sorry! My heart breaks for you. We had to let go of one of our pets last year. Sending love.

  69. Peggy Born says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my sweet boy in February and I still miss him so much. It was so hard to let him go, but it was the last act of love I could give him. I still have his handsome picture on me credenza with a print of a dog and the words “A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than he loves himself” by Josh Billings. Will keep you and your broken heart in my prayers.

  70. Dawn Surmeier says:

    Dear Ann,
    I understand your pain completely as I had to put down my dog, Nutmeg, on july 23rd. She was my companion for 15 years and was the only thing I had left since my husband passed away in 2020 (my kids live out of state). I am hoping your pain will soon diminish and you will be able to focus on happy times you had. Please take comfort in you did what was best for your pup.

  71. Lynn Harris says:

    Ann, I wanted to express my deepest sympathy in the loss of your beloved pet Kelly. I have been thinking of you throughout the day and my heart hurts for you and your husband. I know exactly what you’re going through. I, too, got my first dog as an empty nester at age 50. She was a wonderfully good natured, happy little lap dog, a Bichon named Sophie. We simply adored her and were blessed to have her nearly 15 years. We lost her 3 years ago next month. I encourage you to read The Rainbow Bridge poem if someone hasn’t previously mentioned it. I truly believe that if you have loved and lost a pet, you will be reunited one day. God is that good. Ann, On Sutton Place was the first blog I ever subscribed to. We were experiencing some heavy duty midwestern snow storms and praying that the electricity would stay on so we wouldn’t miss “Downton Abbey”. I thought I had so much in common with you. I will be praying for you in the days ahead as you grieve for Kelly. God’s blessings be yours.

  72. So sorry for the loss of your little Kelly. Prayers lifted for y’all.

  73. I am so sorry for your loss. So very sorry. Kelly was such a beauty. I enjoyed every picture you posted of your faithful companion. I remember when you shared about her attack and how much I was hoping she would be okay. Eight years ago we went through the same heartache. We had gotten our sweetheart for the same reason you got Kelly. I decided I never wanted another. It hurt too much. My husband felt otherwise. Six weeks later we had another Pomeranian. She is the love of our life. She definitely stole our hearts. I did not think I could love again…Yep, hook, line, and sinker. God bless you, Ann. 🌸May time heal your broken heart.

  74. Jan Fusco says:

    Ann I’m hurting with you. I know what it’s like to lose a precious fur baby.
    I married just shy of my 40th birthday so I never had children but I do have a wonderful stepson. My precious doggies…Dixie, Tilly and D’beaux were my babies. They gave such comfort and love unconditionally. I hope you find comfort in all the happy memories you have with your pup. Thinking of you.

  75. Amen. I wish you peace.

  76. Oh Ann I am so sorry for your loss. Our fur babies touch our heart in a way that is so different from any other kind of love. I enjoyed every post that you featured Kelly. We all knew what a wonderful companion she was and how she filled your household. I cried all the way through your post and know the loss you are experiencing. Give yourself time to grieve and remember her lovingly. She will always be with you.

  77. Marisa Hart says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. The depth of love for a pet is what gives one the strength to show your pet the gift of freedom from pain and illness, as much as we would love to hold them closer a little longer…

  78. Ann Thrash-Trumbo says:

    What a cute little girl, what a beautiful pup. I can only imagine how your heart is breaking. I’m praying that you will experience joy once again, soon.

  79. Denise :) says:

    Ann, I’m so sorry. I know the heaviness of your heart. Praying the peace that passes all understanding for you. 💗💗💗

  80. Michelle Morrison says:

    Dear Ann,
    I feel the pain you are experiencing, and your post brought tears to my eyes. I also lost my best friend, a standard poodle named Charlie, on St. Patrick’s Day of this year. Like you, my four legged best friend became my constant companion after I retired. I remember when you lost your mother. You can feel her around you in spirit, right? It will be no different with Kelly as soon as the hole in your heart closes.

    “When tomorrow starts without me,
    Don’t think we’re far apart,
    For every time you think of me,
    I’m right here, inside your heart”


  81. I am so sorry for you. I have lost many dogs in my married life and they all still have a place in my heart. I still miss them but I remember the love they gave us and that helps some.
    I pray that God will give you peace that passeth all understanding and you can remember the good times and not dwell on the grief. I know it is hard because they are such a integral part of our families.

  82. Reading your post about the loss of your best friend Kelly and how we love our pets so much and they give so much in return. Sending you and your family hugs of comfort. We just went through a very similar situation with our Kate. She was a beautiful black lab and had the sweetest disposition. Saying goodbye was so hard but we didn’t want her to be uncomfortable. Seems so quite around our home.

  83. Jan Colby says:

    I’m writing this with tears in my eyes. Life without your sweet Kelly to always be there hurts immeasurably. It’s a dark place that just doesn’t seem to get any brighter. After losing my sweet mini Schnauzer last November, I understand the depth of hurt. Remembering all of the silly Schnauzer antics that only they can do, turns some of the hurt into smiles. The brief moment in time that they are with us leaves our hearts and lives ever so much richer. My prayers to you for comfort in the days ahead.

  84. I am truly sorry for the loss of your beloved friend/companion. I read a quote that said something like this: the last gift we can give to end their suffering knowing that ours will just be beginning. May all the wonderful memories sustain you through your grief. Again, so sorry.

  85. Oh, Ann! I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved Kelly! I really am! I wish I was there to give you a hug, rub your back and comfort you. Give yourself time – lots of time. Be gentle and patient with yourself. You will never forget Kelly but you will get to a better place. Much love to you and your husband.

  86. Suzanne milstead says:

    My heart breaks to read your story. We lost our schnauzer 2 months ago. He was killed by 3 dogs that belonged to our neighbor. We had Mac for 9 1/2 years. Like you, I got him when I retired for companionship. My husband had not yet retired. He walked with us every day for 9 1/2 years.
    He was our protector (barking at everything), he was our entertainment, he gave us unconditional love.
    It is still hard because our house is now so quiet. Our morning walks are not as adventurous as they were when Mac chased every squirrel. Mealtime is not the same because Mac was always at our feet waiting for a bite.
    He will always live in our hearts and we will be thankful for love we shared. The saying, “It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” is something I try to remember as we forge ahead with Mac. As you will. 😢

    1. Suzanne Milstead says:

      Should have written “without Mac”.

  87. Ann Wilder says:

    I know exactly how you feel and it hurts so bad. Within 18 days we just in the last 2 weeks lost both of our fur babies…an 18.5 year old chihuahua and our 12 year old Boston. We are struggling. They become such a part of your daily life and are such integral parts of your family, it is so hard when they are gone. You put it so well about the thread being broken. I am so sorry for your loss as well.

  88. Karen Huck says:

    Thank you for sharing. I’m so sorry you lost Kelly. I to am about to lose my Mazie dog. She is such a part of our retired life and she is 13 now too. She has such bad arthritis, and she get medicine but I know the time is soon. I hate to let her go. I love her with my whole heart. She goes everywhere with us including sleeping right down the middle of the bed at night. But they say our animals will let us know when it’s time. I just love her up each day.
    Hugs and prayers to you,

  89. What you say is so true that they become a thread in the tapestry of our lives. My heart goes out to you and your family with a loss that is so deep words fail to describe it. Please know we are all holding you in our hearts.

  90. Jennie Auld says:

    There’s so little one can say to alleviate that awful sense of loss. It happens too often, and never gets better. But time is kind, and the day will come when you can remember her without an ache in your heart, and smile at special memories. 🌸

  91. Keeping you and your husband in my prayers as you deal with the loss of your sweet Kelly. We have had to put two mini schnauzers to sleep, the latest being Henry in January a year ago after he was diagnosed with a brain tumor. It is such a painful decision to make, but afterwards my husband and I always knew we had done what was best for our babies. It was so painful to come home to an empty house (we’re empty nesters), so right when the pandemic started, we gave two mini schnauzer puppies their forever homes. They gave us so much joy during the time we were confined and continue to do so. You will figure out what you need to do to fill the void in your life as times passes and heals your hurt.

    1. Your Kelly had a wonderful life, and was so loved. I’m so sorry for this difficult time for you, I totally understand, we had to say goodbye to our Welch terrier, just shy of his 17th birthday. Such a hard decision, our Welch had an inoperable tumor under his eye lid, which became infected and effected his sinus areas, and also lost strength in his hind quarters. Easy day gets a little easier. Friends and family have criticized us for burying our beloved Welsch at a pet cemetery, but like you said, not everyone can understand how much they become a part of your family. Prayers for you, find peace in your memories of Kelly, she is in doggie heaven……

  92. Melissa Houston says:

    Thank you, Ann, for sharing your story and Kelly’s with your readers. I am so very sorry for your loss. I understand as I’ve lost a beloved cat who had to be put down and two pet rabbits. Loss is the cost of love. However, I would take the love of a dear pet over the pain of loss. Those we love never really leave us as long as we have our memories. I have another sweet bunny, and he enriches my life daily. I hope you find that memories help ease your pain and that the tears are mixed with smiles. Thank you for the beautiful printable. Your blog is a favorite of mine, and I so appreciate your ability to write so beautifully. With prayers and love, I wish you and your family comfort.

  93. The pup we have is not even ours – it belongs to our daughter – but it is definitely family. I felt your every heartbeat in your writing about Kelly. And it brought me to tears. Hang in there, Ann. Hugs from a distance and prayers for your broken heart.

  94. My prayers are with you!!! My heart aches for your loss of Kelly!!!

  95. Ann my heart aches for you and your husband on the loss of your beloved Kelly. Kelly was lucky to have you and you her. My sincere sympathy to you both. The printable quote about loving animals says it all. Thank you Ann that in the midst of your grief you shared it with all of us. Holding you close in my thoughts and prayers.

  96. Praying for your heart!

  97. My deepest sympathy Ann. Your Kelly was blessed by you and you by her. Treasure your memories. I owned my horse Galahad Lad for 32 years. Hardest day of my life when I had to let him go. I am such a better person for the unconditional love he showed me. He was my BFF.

  98. Mary Clancy says:

    I am so sorry. I just looked over at the photo of my Westie, Cooper, and I asked my Mom and Dad in heaven to give him a big hug. 💖

  99. S Edwards says:

    Oh, Ann, I wish I had the words to make you feel better. I walked your path two weeks ago, and my sweet, 13-year old poodle passed in my arms with a delicious piece of Arby’s roast beef in her mouth. I had grieved her so much in the 3 or 4 weeks BEFORE she passed that I am mostly at peace now. I still talk and sing to her, tell her good-night, and constantly look around for her, but I gave her a really good life and was determined to give her a good death. Like you, it was the last, precious thing I could do to a sweet spirit who loved me like no other. They are ours only for a season, but the lessons they teach us live on for a lifetime. Sending you love and peace.

  100. Ann, pets provide us with unmeasurable joy and companionship and then unmeasurable loss and sadness when we lose them. I’m so sorry for your loss of Kelly. 💙

  101. I’m so sorry for your loss. Many years ago my husband and I had to have our 16 year old poodle put down. After that, we said never again will we go thru that heartache and despair. Well, 5 years ago a little Pomeranian named Ollie needed a home. I took one look at his little face and fell head over heels in love. He was 10 at the time and is now 15, but still healthy with just a little bit of arthritis. What I said I would never go thru again is going to be upon me and, with God’s help, will know when the time is right for Ollie. ❤️

  102. I’m so very sorry for your loss and heavy heart. I truly understand as I had to do the same many years ago. I cried for days, and you will too. But it will pass and you will again be able to smile when thinking of Kelly. I’ll be praying for your comfort during this difficult time.

  103. I’m sure you’ll never get to my reply as you’ve had so many wonderful caring hearts reaching out to you. But, we just had to say goodbye to our beloved pup that was just 9. We are so heart broken that I can barely type this comment, that said I had to say that I thank you for writing to tell us about the loss of your dear Kelly as I got to read some very touching stories about how others made it through. Kelly was blessed to have had you. Many just don’t ever get the chance to have such love. I’m sure we will see them again one day…so here’s to Kelly and Bella…may they be running merrily in the gardens of the heavens. Bless you.

  104. I feel your pain clearly. That process was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, too. It does ease with time.

  105. Christine says:

    I am so sorry for the loss of your dear Kelly. Sounds like she was your best friend💗.

  106. Pamela Turner says:

    The imprint left on your heart by Kelly’s love is permanent. One day the smiles of her memory and the days you spent together will replace tears and sadness. My heart goes out to you for your loss.

  107. I’m so very sorry about the loss of your sweet Kelly. I know it doesn’t seem like it will ever get better but it will over time. No other pup can replace her but having another pup to love is what always heals my heart. There are so many out there that need loving homes so when you’re ready, whenever that maybe, consider opening your heart and home to another dog. Our latest rescue is a little Maltipoo that we adopted after our beloved cocker girl passed. I’m not sure who was having a harder time – our male dog who was her companion- or us. Bringing little Coco into our lives helped us all heal and she makes us laugh every day. ❤️‍🩹

  108. I am sorry to hear of Kelly’s passing. I know how you feel. My cat of 19 years needed to be put to sleep a few years ago and the loneliness that followed was difficult. Like you said, eventually you will be able to remember Kelly’s life with only joy and not the heart-break of this time. The depth of your sorrow is a testament to what a “good dog” she was and what a “good “ dog Mom you are. My thoughts are with you…

  109. Tracy Glass says:

    Ann, I am so sorry for your loss. Deepest condolences. ❤️

  110. Teddee Grace says:

    Please accept my condolences on your loss. I have walked that path and, as you say, it is the hardest thing I ever had to do. The solace is the love you shared. My heart goes out to you.

  111. Ann-so very sorry for your loss. Kelly looks so precious and words cannot express the pain. Our family has experienced our pets passing on and time was the healer. Bless you and your husband during this time.

  112. I’m so very sorry to read of Kelly. She was so darling! Love her sweet face. I have a Westie that just turned 15 and I know that day will come soon and it’s so difficult to think about. I am so grateful to have been able to work remote this last year and a half so I could be home with him. Always hated leaving him when I went to work. Thank you for sharing your stories with us all – even the difficult ones. Praying for you and your family.

  113. Ann. I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved Kelly. I know just had sad it is to lose a big part of your family. But, just know that when it is your time you will be together again. She will be waiting for you.

  114. Ann, so sorry for your loss, there are few things in life that are as painful. Kelly will live in your heart forever and someday the smiles will replace the tears.

  115. I’m so sorry for your loss. They capture our hearts and become a member of our families very quickly. You gave her the gift of being free from pain. I hope you can find some peace in that. Maybe even when the timing is right you will give your heart to another. May God comfort you and you feel his living compassion💕

  116. I’m so sorry for your loss of Kelly. I had to make the same decision for our sweet Molly and it is devastating. I knew though that I took care of her from when she was 6 weeks old until she was 16 years old and I had to continue so she wouldn’t suffer. Time will help you but honestly your heart will remain broken.

  117. So sorry for your loss of Kelly. We have also lost beloved furry family members, so very hard. Sending healing thoughts your way ❤️

  118. So sorry! I know your pain all too well. Our pets give so much to our lives, unconditionally, they are our family. It’s so hard to say goodbye. Heartbreaking! I said goodbye to my sweet pup almost 2 years ago and I still miss her every day! Glad you were able to spend so much time with Kelly, what a gift! 💗🙏

    1. So very sorry for your loss of Kelly. I lost my Jesse 8 years ago and I still get tears eyed whenever I think of him. My life is now full with two Malteses Jake and Josh whom I love dearly but there is a corner in my heart that will always belong to Jesse. God bless you.

  119. Kelly is the reason I started following your blog. I don’t remember how I originally came across your blog, but while browsing your site I saw a picture of Kelly. My family has a love affair with schnauzers. Ranger is our current mini schnauzer, but we have loved and lost two over the course of our marriage. I am so sorry for your loss. I know the hurt and grief you are currently walking through. They will always be with you. My husband love to retell stories about Gracie and Harry. Over time the pain will dull a bit. I will hold you in my prayers.

  120. Ann, I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your dear Kelly. I started crying the first paragraph in as I knew something was weighing heavily on your heart. She has been a joy to see when you capture her in your pictures.

    Sending hugs and prayers to you and your family on her loss.

  121. Debra Oliver says:

    You’re in my prayers Ann. I had a little white cat that was my shadow and I loved her dearly. She went into diabetic shock and it was obvious that she needed to pass on. Since it was so sudden it threw me hard. I cried for days and went into a deep depression for weeks. Slowly I began to handle it better. So many of us know how you feel. God will lift you up thru this. hugs and prayers. Debra

  122. Ann I am so sad for you and so sorry. My heart aches for you and your husband. I pray that the memories soon start to comfort your heart and put a smile on your face. Blessings.

  123. My condolences on losing your beloved Kelly. What a beautiful girl she was!

  124. Ann,
    I am so sorry to hear of your loss! Blessings to you and your family, during this difficult time!

  125. Sharon Shergold says:

    So sorry to hear about Kelly, our pets hold such a special place in our hearts. They ask for nothing, just a cuddle and some food but they give us so much in return and they don’t even realize it. From one broken heart to another I know exactly how you feel, take care

  126. Oh Ann,
    I am so sorry to hear about Kelly. Sorry for the deep sadness you feel. We, who love our animals, feel such an enormous loss when they leave us. After going through it twice, I said never again. A few years later, as my son was adopting his third golden (after losing the first two), I saw a photo of the only female in the litter and I knew we had to rescue her. She is just turning eleven soon and I can’t imagine life without her. Now, I wish we hadn’t waited so long. We will all be keeping you in our thoughts and prayers as you go through this time of sorrow–

  127. A loving tribute to your Kelly. So sorry for your loss.

  128. Mary Meusburger says:

    My heart is breaking for you Anne. We feel the loss of our beloved pets so deeply. I am praying for you that as days go by your happy memories of Kelly will fill the emptiness you feel.
    Take care and God Bless❤️

  129. My heart is breaking for you. I am so, so sorry that you lost Kelly.

  130. Cathy Payne says:

    Anne, I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved fur baby, Kelly ♥️ Euthanizing my dear fur baby was indeed , one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make. Biggest and warmest of hugs to you ! ♥️

    1. Ann,
      I am so sorry to hear of your beloved Kelly’s passing. The only way I got thru this was I cried, prayed for help from Jesus, cried some more. I grieved everyday, cried, prayed, cried. I talked to my Fluffy, held his pictures and one day it was a little better. I know Jesus helped me thru this. It will take time, they’re family. I’ll be sending love and prayers to you and your family.

  131. Anne, my prayers are with you. The loss of a pet is devastating, and those who have never experienced such love may never understand the bond God creates between humans and pets. May His unconditional love fill your heart, and bring you peace. The joys you have known with Kelly will always be with you and may they bring you comfort. We are on pet number 3, a rescue. Never did we imagine such love from a rescued animal–it’s like they know and show you so. God had to show us twice Mynx needed our help. We never regret taking that little feral kitten in and helping him heal. His will be our greatest loss of the 3, but the joys and love make it worthhile. Peace.

  132. Oh Ann, I’m typing this with tears in my eyes. I put my beloved Yorkie down over a year ago, after 16 wonderful years with her. I still tear up when I think about that day. The grief that comes with the loss of a pet can’t even be described. May time heal your heart.

  133. I read this on FB and I think it says it all about the loss of a pet.
    I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
    I could see that you were crying…you found it hard to sleep.
    I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear.
    “It’s me, I haven’t left you…I’m well, I’m fine, I’m here.”

    I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea.
    You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
    I was with you at the shops today, your arms were getting sore.
    I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

    I was with you at my grave today, you tend it with such care.
    I want to reassure you that I am not lying there.
    I walked with you toward the house, as you fumbled for your key,
    I gently put my paw on you. I smiled and said, “It’s me.”

    You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
    I tried so hard to let you know that I was standing there.
    It’s possible for me to be so near you every day.
    To say to you with certainty, “I never went away.”

    You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew…
    In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
    The day is over…I smile and watch you yawning
    And say, “Goodnight, God bless, I’ll see you in the morning.”

    And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
    I’ll rush across to greet you and we will stand, side-by-side.
    I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
    Be patient, live your journey out…then come home to be with me.

    -Author Unknown

  134. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet girl.I had a schnauzer many years ago and understand the sadness you are feeling.Hoping for brighter days, sending you hugs.

  135. Ann, I am so very sorry for your loss of Kelly. Oh, how we love our fur babies. A love like no other!

  136. Ann,
    I am so sorry for your loss of beautiful Kelly 🐶💜. They are the light of our lives and unfortunately, it is the worst part of having our treasured furry family members. I know that your broken heart will take time to mend and it’s ok. Remember that she is over the Rainbow Bridge and with other loved furry family members. She knows how much she was loved by you and your entire family. Take peace in knowing that she is running free and enjoying all of her favorite things and also watching you and will see you again when the time comes 🥰. XO Air hugs from AZ ~Lynn W

  137. Diane@InMyOwnStyle says:

    Hi Ann – I am so sorry to hear about Kelly. Our pets are such a big part of our families and give us such joy. It is so hard to have to say goodbye. I will miss seeing her in your blog posts and hearing her bark when we have MM. Thinking of you. XO

  138. Please know that myself and so many others are helping to shoulder your grief at this time.

  139. Carol Audette says:

    Kelly, Oh, my heart goes out to you and your husband! I hope one day soon you will wake up without sadness and maybe have the strength to get another dog to love.

  140. Shirley Black says:

    Ann, So sorry to hear about your loss of Kelly. 🙏💕Losing a dog never is never easy. I have had five collies over the last 44 years; before, during and after my three children. It is always so hard to lose one but the memories of each of them stay with us and still bring us joy. I now have a mini Aussie and she is our current love. Once you feel a little bit better I recommend you get another pup, not to replace Kelly, but for the companionship of another chance for unconditional love.

  141. Ann, I am so sorry to hear about sweet Kelly. My thought and prayers are with you.

  142. I’m so very sorry for your loss, my prayers are with you. 💜

  143. I am so sorry for your loss, Ann. I am crying with you. Dogs are so important to us, aren’t they? Kelly was very loved and you and she were lucky to have each other.

  144. So sorry! We lost our “Kelly”, a black lab 6 years ago. I still see her walking around and every once in a while a small clump of black hair surfaces and rolls across the floor. Must be stuck under the couch or chairs or something. She will never be really gone! Lots of hugs to you.

  145. I know just how you’re feeling, Ann – you’re in my thoughts and prayers as you navigate through this season. 😘

  146. Dear Ann, So sorry for the loss of your precious companion, Kelly. We will all miss seeing her in your blog pictures. It’ always hard to lose your ‘best friend’. As your other readers have posted, our family lost our beloved golden retriever, Otis, many years ago, shortly after our youngest child graduated from high school. Our kids were grown, and we had to bid farewell to our loving dog. We got Otis when our daughter (our youngest) was 5, after she left many notes on our pillow and wrote us letters about wanting a dog. Otis proved to be our family’s constant companion. We have many stories about him that make us smile, laugh, and cry, as we remember him. We celebrated his birthday on Christmas each year. On Christmas Eve day some years back, I took him to the vet, as he wasn’t eating and was losing weight. The prognosis was bad… he had multiple tumors in his lungs. I could have had him put down then, but I brought him home, crying all the way home, and we celebrated one last Christmas (and his birthday) together as a family. We had him put to sleep 2 weeks after Christmas, which was heartbreaking, as it was for your family. But what a blessing for both of our families (and many other dog lovers), who can say they had the love of their best buddy for several years.❤️ Thinking of you…

  147. My heart aches for you. Whenever I have adopted a pet I have said to myself “One day you will break my heart.” I have two cats now. The last dog I had, a magnificent Sheltie, died at only 7 years old. It shattered my world. It’s been many years and I’ve never been able to get another dog. I can’t bear it again.”

  148. Lora Dalton says:

    Ann, I am so sorry for your loss. Our fur babies mean the world to us. May Kelly’s meme Ott always be a blessing to you.

  149. Hugs to you Ann ; may you find peace in the many memories
    which you have of your beloved Kelly . 💕

  150. So sorry for your loss. Loving a fur baby is the most unconditional love there is. I pray for peace and healing and sweet, wonderful memories.💗

  151. Dear Ann, I truly do consider you my friend. Yesterday I was thinking about you and just wondering about your dear pet. To read this today fills my heart with sadness. Please know that I am thinking of you and will be sending you encouraging thoughts for a long time going forward as you grieve. So many of us have loved this little friend right along with you.

  152. My heart aches for you, Ann. We had our beloved yellow lab, Taxi, put to sleep at just about the same time as you bid farewell to your sweet Kelly. It truly does break one’s heart, I think because our pets love us so unconditionally and see only the best version of us. Hugs and best wishes to you, Ann.

  153. I am so very sorry for your loss and hope that healing comes soon.

  154. We give them our unlimited love. We know the day must come, but they leave such a gaping hole in our heart. She was adorable, Ann. Just adorable. I’m so sorry for your loss. May God heal your heart💕

  155. I am so sorry for your loss. We too lost our family pet after our children were grown and on their own, just two weeks prior to my youngest son’s wedding. She was 14 and was sick as well. It was one of the hardest things we’ve ever done, but knowing it was out of pure love for her and for her peace and comfort, we made the same decision. Prayers for you as you go through this grieving process.

  156. Janet Hurlbrink says:

    So sorry for your loss. We had to put our dog down a year ago this month. It is one of the hardest things you have to do.

  157. Sue Daugherty says:

    I am so sorry about Kelly. It’s so difficult to loose such a beloved member of your family and devoted friend. Sending you a hug. It’s so hard.

  158. I’m so sorry for your loss, Ann, and I certainly know your pain as I’ve experienced it 3 times before. Time will heal and you my find, against your better judgement, that one day you find yourself longing for a new pup! Love and prayers to you, your family and your beloved Kelly.

  159. It is the saddest most heart breaking experience I’ve had too. I had a second dog at the time, and that helped some. But everyday I still miss him. My Scottish terrier is now 12 with progressive heart disease, so she will start a new journey and I will too without her and I’m terribly sad and anxious just thinking about it. We recently bought a rabbit for my daughter to help with this transition, but I’m definitely not going to encourage you to get a rabbit. :) I hope with time the pain eases a little more each day for you. Hugs

  160. I know how hard this time is… Hugs❤️

  161. Debra Matcovich says:

    My heart breaks for you since I know how it feels to lose a beloved fur baby. So sorry for your loss.💔

  162. Ann, I am so very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing even your difficult times with us. Lots of love.

  163. Barbara Murray says:

    Oh, Ann! I sit here with tears running down my face, as this is something I too dread some day for our dear Sheba. And that “some day” always comes whether we want it to or not. The love of an animal is one of absolute trust, and we are the beneficiaries of that trust. Their returned love is only conditional upon our being good human beings and that is what they help us become.

    Deepest condolences from my heart to yours.

  164. So sorry to hear the news – our fur babies put a paw print on our hearts that never leaves, they touch a part of us that will always remain. Love and Hugs to you.

  165. I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved Kelly. Our pets are members of our family and are there for us when other family members may not be. I know all too well how it feels to have to say goodbye to a beloved pet. It is definitely the hardest part of having them in our lives. Just know that you gave her the best life possible and that she is not in any more pain. Wishing you comfort and peace.

  166. O MY GOODNESS!!
    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss Anne !! My mini schnauzer saved my life – when I rescued him 4 yrs ago ! (he actually rescued me!) I. Ertainly ws not a dog lover or never thot I d own one – but he has been the best part of my life…. I have a particular love for schnausers that doesn’t extend to other breeds – so yr words spoke deeply to my heart & it breaks for u! & I know that one day I will experience the same pain u ve had to face & I dread it immensely !!
    I’m sure yr heart will heal one day…. sooo sorry for this incredible loss!💔

  167. Oh Ann, I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet Kelly🐾💔

  168. To love a pet is to accept that someday you will lose them and mourn. It is the sad part about loving them so much. I totally understand as I’ve had to euthanize 9 of my cats over the years. I have 3 now that I know I will have to say goodbye to and dread that day to come. It is so hard and heartbreaking to lose them. My heart and condolences go out to you as you journey through your grief of losing your sweet pup. Take care!

    1. I hope that someday your heart will leap for joy again. Kelly would want that for you. I have had many dogs in my life and would not want to be without one close by. I have three right now who share my life. One is a foster fail who I fostered and then adopted. Someone had trained her in the past. She was picked up as a stray and in the past her leg must have been broken and never healed correctly so she has a limp but it doesn’t stop her from running around and swimming with her dog friends. She is very sweet. I also have a cocker spaniel and a Rottweiler. The Rottweiler is a therapy dog and just loves visiting people in assisted living facilities as well as children in summer camps. My other therapy dog had to be let go this year due to Cushings Disease. It was really hard to say good bye to the puppy that I got when I retired – she was a very sweet girl who loved children and even loved going to the vet where she got a lot of attention at each visit. So, I understand your feeling of loss without your darling Kelly. I just hope that when you are ready, you can open your heart and home to another dog. There are so many wonderful dogs that are in need of loving homes. I have also volunteered on a Pet Loss Support Hotline while working at Cornell and spoke with so many people who couldn’t understand why the loss of their pet was even harder than losing a family member. I think it is the unconditional love that our pets give us each and every day and the routine of every day caring for them. May you find peace and joy in remembering all the love that Kelly gave you during her life.

  169. I completely understand what you’re going thru Ann. For Christmas, 2000 we brought Corona, a Bichon-Shih Tzu mix, into our family. She instantly became a beloved member of our family! She too went everywhere with us and we loved her! We always told her “you’re the best puppy in the whole wide world!” In December, 2019 we had to say goodbye to her. It was the hardest thing we had to do and also had the same questions….is this a mistake? We miss her! The pain does get better as time goes on but we still miss our Corona! She holds a special place in our hearts!!

  170. I’m so sorry to hear this. It certainly leaves a whole in your heart when you lose a beloved pet.

  171. I am so sorry. You stated it perfectly when you said only a pet owner understands the sorrow when we lose a pet. I had to say goodbye almost 4 years ago to my dog, then in April of this year to my one remaining dog, and finally to our son’s rescued German Shepherd 2 weeks ago. I miss them all every day. And sadly, there won’t be anymore dogs for us due to my husband’s declining health.

  172. Jeanna Swann says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss. What a treasured friend she was.

  173. The situation is one we have experienced several times in our 38 years of having pet children. We are on our 3rd spaniel now. I will tell you the process of working through the path of loss will help you reach the day the sadness is not constant. My heart is with you and knows how it feels. Take a day at a time and rejoice in the love and happiness your Kelly and you have.

  174. I can share fully the emotional pain are feeling over the loss of your beloved puppy. He will always be with you! In a few months, perhaps you will decide to adopt another little friend who needs a good home and the same kind of love you shared with Kelly. I’m loving on my 4th kitty-cat, and each one of my former cats live inside my little meow buddy! Hang in there!

  175. Susan McFeggan says:

    I totally feel your pain as I too had to put by beloved over the Rainbow Bridge just this February. Our Missy was 14 and it was indeed so very hard to do. I still cry at times and there are time I walk out to the back yard and tell the grandkids to watch out for dog poop and then remember there is none. Usually I have smiling memories of all our good times but I miss her so much. Your heavy heart will lift a bit in time and happier memories will fill in. We are all blessed to have such sweet loyal companions enter our lives and we will see them again someday. Hugs to you Ann.

  176. So very sorry for your loss, thinking of you and wishing you comfort.

  177. Nancy Kelley says:

    What a bittersweet post on losing your beloved pet! I am so sorry Kelly is no longer with you as your faithful companion. She was a lucky pup to have such wonderful owners.

  178. When I read the subtitle I knew what the blog was about. In your previous you gave hinted that Kelly wasnt feeling well. 😔 My heart is with you. Know that you gave Kelly an amazing life and she also gave you both love. It is hard when you lose your beloved pet but think of the lovely times and all those beautiful pictures you have of her.❤

  179. Julie greschner says:

    I’m feeling your loss. I too, just put down our dog of 14 years. I felt like an executioner. But I knew I did it for love. The void will lessen. But. You have so much love to give. That love spreads outward into the world. So many animals are in such need of love. Give another a chance to bring sunshine to you and security and a home to them.


  180. Barbara Edwards Armacost says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. You are right that losing a pet is one of the hardest things to endure. I lost both of my Bostons in the last year and the house seems so empty. Pets are one of the best things the good Lord gives us to help us get through life. Take care.

  181. Linda Strachan says:

    I’m so very sorry…your emptiness is real and losing her is such a loss. Keep all your fond memories of her and mourn her for as long as you need to,

  182. Oh I am so sorry!! I know how deep a love of a pet is. My side kick is a 12 lb Blenheim King Charles Cavalier that also 13 yrs old. She is also my “baby” too. I will say a prayer of comfort for you. It is truly hard to put down your pet…

  183. Dogs are special creatures…created to serve, love, and please. So thankful you gave Kelly such a happy home and life. Thankful she gave you such joy and love. Cherish the memories…keep them close…and that love remains, always.

  184. I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing her with us.

  185. 5 stars
    I’m so sorry. I understand. Maybe this will help when it’s time to give your heart to a new pet.

    Before humans die, they write their last will and testament, giving their home and all they have to those they leave behind. If, with my paws, I could do the same, this is what I’d ask…

    To a poor and lonely stray, I’d give my happy home; my bowl and cozy bed, soft pillow and all my toys; the lap, which I loved so much; the hand that stroked my fur; and the sweet voice that spoke my name.

    I’d will to the sad, scared, shelter dog the place I had in my human’s loving heart, of which there seemed no bounds.

    So, when I die, please do not say, “I will never have a pet again, for the loss and the pain is more than I can stand.”

    Instead, go find an unloved dog, one whose life has held no joy or hope, and give my place to him.

    This is the only thing I can give…

    The love I left behind.

    – Author Unknown

    1. 5 stars
      This is so beautiful I need to somehow keep this forever.

    2. Cathy Ramage says:

      I am so sorry for your loss.I know what you are feeling our family has lost 3 family pets this year it is devastating and our homes feel empty and we miss them terribly I understand the hole inside of you .Bless you and in time our memories will be of joy and comfort.

  186. Praying for you peace! Rest In Peace Kelly🙏

  187. My hart goes out to you and your family . Kelly will forever be unforgettable 💕💕

  188. Mary Chow says:

    I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your sweet Kelly. What a pretty girl. When I first found your blog, I immediately noticed her. We are a schnauzer family so I was in love with Kelly from the start. It took everything I had to get through your message. My heart hurts so much from my own loss. We lost our sweet schnauzer, Bella, at 15 on July 23. Same thing….cancer….and we too were eventually faced with that awful decision. Like Kelly, she was my right hand, followed me everywhere I went. Life will never be the same without her but I will eventually have another sweet fur baby..not to take her place, but to honor her.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. I am still reeling so I understand your loss so well.

    God Bless

  189. I’m so very sorry for the loss of your fur baby. Pets are indeed an important part of our family. It’s evident she knew she was very well loved.

  190. Martha Hamilton says:

    I understand your love for Kelly! I feel the same way about my empty nest Corgi. May God give you comfort as you treasure precious memories with her.

  191. Donna Nance says:

    Ann, I am so very sorry for your loss of your beloved, constant companion.

  192. I am so sorry you are grieving the loss of Kelly. I too am watching my two boys move on in life and feel a gigantic hole in my heart. They are my everything. We have a12year old Norwegian Elkhound that has stolen my heart when I did not want to take on a pet. She too is my love and I know what heartache lies ahead. We can only look back at the good times we’ve had. You will keep her close in your heart. 💔🐾

  193. Ann, so sorry to hear and fully understand the depth of your loss. What a beautiful tribute to sweet Kelly. In time your heart will heal, but never forget.

  194. I am sorry for your loss. Our pets are truly a part of our lives. Sweet memories of your loved dog will stay with you forever. I so enjoy your blog and know how hard this one was to write having gone through this three times with previous dogs.

  195. I’m so sorry to hear about Kelly’s passing. Hugs and prayers to you and your family. ❤️

  196. Ann, my heart goes out to you. We bring these kind souls home and they truely are part of our family. Grief is hard. So sorry for your loss and pray your deep pain lessens soon.

  197. We had one just like her! In fact several years ago when I first saw her on your blog, I said oh my there’s Pretty Girl! That was her name. She to developed a tumor on her leg. Well, I’ll say this. Animals are a big part in Gods creation. So I’ll say with confidence that you will see Kelly again. Probably as soon as you get there. 🥰

  198. A few weeks ago we put down our 15 year old Daisy. Our girls immediately said get another and they arranged a puppy if we approved. Junie is her name and she will never replace Daisy but she sure has added so much love to our empty nest life. We are still going to travel but no trip could compare to her.

  199. So very sorry for the loss of your dog. They fill our hearts and lives in ways that are immeasurable. It is truly heartbreaking when they leave. ❤️

  200. Dear Ann,
    I somehow new this was coming for you and immediately knew when her sweet face greeted me in my email this morning. Little Kelly has had some issues you have mentioned in the past and my heart aches for you. I’ve enjoyed every picture you included of her and saved them with pictures of my own little miniature schnauzers. I loved your halloween drawing of her too. I could relate to you, your blog, and Kelly because of my own little mini by my side. And now I grieve with you for her passing. I am so sorry Ann. I wish I could make it better. My heart would begin to heal as I began to search for another little mini to replace the previous dear one that left but even that will seem like a betrayal. I have my third little schnauzer by my side this morning as I read your note and am lovingly remembering the previous two I said goodbye to. I’m hoping the sadness and the hole in your heart will begin begin to heal in the weeks ahead. I’m just so sad for you. 😥

  201. Catherine A Smith says:

    I am so sorry for your loss, my dog Sammy who was 17 yrs old who was very sick passed away on June 14/21. I find myself crying out his name. There is a profound sadness that seems to never ends. I had to put Sammy to sleep too, and it is a heart-wrenching decision to make. So many thoughts go through your mind. My heart goes out to you and I will be praying for you.

  202. Ann, I am so very sorry that your little Kelly is gone. All animal lovers face this at one time or another, and it truly is gut-wrenching. I remember going to the vet with our precious Remi (even as I type this I have tears in my eyes thinking of her and that day.) We knew it was the right thing to do, possibly the most noble thing I’ve done in my life, but even as we made the decision to let her go I kept wondering “maybe the vet is wrong, maybe she’s got years to go yet”. I miss her and her “brother” Rio every day, every night I say ‘good night’ to them. I’ve since adopted two rescue dogs from Mississippi and I adore them but…they’ll never be my Remi and Rio. Hugs to you and your husband.

  203. Paula@SweetPea says:

    I am so very sorry! Our fur babies mean so much and it is so painful to say goodbye.

  204. I am so sorry for your family’s loss of Kelly. I am a retired nurse who had to make that decision for my 16 y/o cat “Mistletoe”. It hurt and then I realized it was about her who had been so loving, loyal, trusting with me – I did not want her to suffer and looking back I know she did not. I remember her as the acrobat she was doing somersaults in midair and hiding in my Christmas tree. May the good memories start soon for you and your family. Just an add-on. Six weeks later I adopted a 4 week old kitten who is the most loving friend ever.

  205. Erin Prohaska says:

    So sorry for your loss. Thinking of you in hopes you find some comfort & can begin to heal as soon as possible. ❤️

  206. My heart is sad for you. Been there. Your heart will reach that day when the wonderful memories will overtake the sadness. But still miss our fur friends that have left us..but can smile

  207. Linda Howard says:

    So very sorry for the hole Kelly’s passing has created in your hearts and your lives. It’s one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make. Prayers for your family.

  208. Susan Cicarelli says:

    So very sorry❤

  209. Ann, so sorry for your loss…………….

  210. Chinita Hayden says:

    Dear Ann,
    I am so sorry that your heart is hurting so desperately. Kelly sounds like a beautiful part of the family that gave as much love as she received. I pray that with prayer and waiting on God that the space that you have in your heart where Kelly resided will be filled with love from the 13 years of memories that you had with her. God bless you!

  211. Jan Brown says:

    Oh Ann, I cried when I read your post! It brought back memories of when we had to put our golden retriever Carlie down two years ago. For us, and you, it’s like a punch in the heart and just hurts so much! I was at dinner with friends talking about Carlie and burst into tears!! I still miss her so much…and you will miss Kelly forever. Please, please, please…and don’t wait very long, get another dog! A precious dog deserves a loving owner like you. We got another golden, Honey, about six months after Carlie died. She is the best dog!

  212. So very sorry. Such a sweet dog she was and always our faithful companions. We are blessed to have them in our lives. Take care.

  213. Sitting here crying over your loss. Time will help heal your heart, but it will take awhile. Praying for you and your husband while you work through this transition.

  214. Cynthia Ernest says:

    I a so sorry for your loss Ann. Our pets absolutely do take on the same value as humans in our lives. We as I am sure many others too have a pup that has taken that place in our hearts when our kids were not here. The joy and comfort they provide is irreplaceable and I cannot imagine life without one. I pray that the Lord – who knows all of our pain – will bring those happy memories and comfort very soon for ya’ll.

  215. So very sorry for your loss.

  216. I am so sorry for your loss. We too had to make that difficult decision for our beloved schnauzer Kandy. It will get better with time. Hugs.

  217. Jettie Ditmarson says:

    I am so sorry Ann and there simply aren’t words. Thank you for sharing your heart!!

  218. Brenda Smith says:

    Dear Ann,
    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You and your husband are in my prayers.

  219. So very sorry for your loss, our pets truly are members of our families. Prayers that your heart will soon be healed.🙏🏻

  220. I’m so sorry for your loss.
    We had to put our 10 1/2 year old Beagle, George, down on Christmas Eve. We didn’t think we would get another dog ever again but in February we got a rescue and she has really brought joy back into the house.
    The knowledge that my pup lived a full, happy life and had a peaceful passing with us by his side comforts me. It does get easier with time. Thinking of you. ❤️

    1. Stephanie says:

      Oh do I understand completely! My first Golden Retriever got a tumor in her hip. After a week in a university vet hospital ( and a hefty loan ) I took her home on hospice. After day 4 of laying by her side it was time. The vet came to our house , wrapped her in a pink blanket and she went to sleep. My heart was broken…
      I am on Golden #3. You cannot replace them, but each one brings so much joy in their own way. I am so very sorry for your loss of Kelly. You will know when the time is right to get another fur baby❤

      1. Stella Napier says:

        Ann, I am so sorry for the loss of Kelly. Our fur babies are family. My prayers are with you. 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️